Monday, July 28, 2014

It's not all about forgetting, it's all about forgiving.

I'm not really the right person to be saying these type of things but here I am, telling the world how forgetting someone is hard, let alone forgive someone who has badly hurt you in the past. If I can say so myself, I remembered such as these phrases popping inside my head like, "You'll regret this." or "We'll see, you'll be coming right back." Yes, I know. It may appear a pretty pathetic stage of my teenage years but yeah, that's life.

Look, I'm not a person full of philosophy or any of those mumbo-jumbo feelings but I am human, and therefore I can express such emotions that, I, too get hurt and cry for something as painful as this. If we can further elaborate this, well--- let's just say it's like a stab in my heart. (I am so melodramatic. Forgive me)

This is my last year to be cheering myself as a teenager; 10 months from now, I'll be entering my twenties and sometimes I think it'll be a whole new experience for me and I think it will be. I'll beat my pessimistic side and just be contented. There's nothing to lose; live life to the fullest.

Challenges might appear harder and there are more decisions to be made in the process, but I know I'll be able to pull through from everything. I have God, nothing can go wrong as long as I have faith in Him.

And yes, for that person who has been so special and dear to me, I'm sorry too. I know that I've done some things in the past that I shouldn't have--- I'm really sorry, for causing you pain and for also making it hard for you. (Although I know you're okay now but for what its worth, if you're able to read this in the future, thank you for the friendship!)

Hopefully, we'll be fine the next time when our paths intersects, yet again. By then, I fervently hope we'd be able to smile at each other and just be ourselves.

Thank you for everything, my dear old friend.

- R.

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