Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Paying and receiving what's rightfully due

Yesterday my mood was shot down to point .1 after arriving from school. No, work loads of stuff at school is not the prime suspect of my expected shitty night; it was all because of that stupid driver's fault! Grrrr.

How did it happened
I got off from the jeepney at the main road as I needed another ride to reach my destination. (The jeepney was heading straight for the terminal, I wasn't) So I approached one of the drivers and said my general address. He looked at me for a minute before motioning me that, "That's a  bit far; I'll just drop you off at the entrance?"

I immediately countered, "No, not in the entrance. Look, I'll pay you more. And besides, it's just straight ahead once we enter the subdivision."

He grinned; of course he would! I was offering to pay more just to keep him from going from that same old excuses I hear every time I'm about to go home. Honestly, it's annoying. 

So he agreed. "Okay, and you'll pay XXX for the fare right?"

Whatever it takes, old man. I just want to go home since it was already late. "Yep." And I popped the P sound.

Everything was going fine until we entered the subdivision and asked me suddenly, "Where?"

I answered, "Straight ahead."

And that was when we both argued and he was getting annoyed because he though it was only near and it wasn't. (Hello, it is NEAR. It's just straight ahead! First time meeting this big-mouthed driver here in Bacolod. ANNOYING!) I'm paying and you think you can get to say mean things like I'm stupid or something?

So I got off even it was still a few blocks from my house, paid him what I promised and stomped off, not caring what he kept on muttering under his breath.

You good for nothing old geezer. How dare you.

WARNING: Always try to see if the driver is not a first-grade DOUCHEBAG.

- R.    


Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Missing my daily dose of reading

After getting a new android phone, I was so excited to refer 10000+ free ebooks app from my old smart phone. I was transferring all my apps via bluetooth and redirecting it to google play store then suddenly, when I was on this specific app, it says that this app cannot be found anymore in play store and therefore cannot be downloaded onto my new phone. Well, that's just great. Terrific.

You can imagine my reaction: (I can get mad in a very subtle way but seriously, this really made me wake up on the wrong side of the bed)

Expectation: Aww, too bad. Well, that's okay. It's not like it's the end of the world. 
Reality: What the--- what do you mean cannot be downloaded? UNACCEPTABLE! (And a little swearing here and there) @%&$#*! 

I was pissed and depressed; my daily routine will be altered. I cannot live without books. I. Must. Read. Immediately. Statum. Right. This. Instant. Gaaaah

And therefore, my quest begins.
(I must find it here on the internet somewhere)

Hear my rants; they're extremely endless. 
I shall apologize in advance.


Monday, July 28, 2014

It's not all about forgetting, it's all about forgiving.

I'm not really the right person to be saying these type of things but here I am, telling the world how forgetting someone is hard, let alone forgive someone who has badly hurt you in the past. If I can say so myself, I remembered such as these phrases popping inside my head like, "You'll regret this." or "We'll see, you'll be coming right back." Yes, I know. It may appear a pretty pathetic stage of my teenage years but yeah, that's life.

Look, I'm not a person full of philosophy or any of those mumbo-jumbo feelings but I am human, and therefore I can express such emotions that, I, too get hurt and cry for something as painful as this. If we can further elaborate this, well--- let's just say it's like a stab in my heart. (I am so melodramatic. Forgive me)

This is my last year to be cheering myself as a teenager; 10 months from now, I'll be entering my twenties and sometimes I think it'll be a whole new experience for me and I think it will be. I'll beat my pessimistic side and just be contented. There's nothing to lose; live life to the fullest.

Challenges might appear harder and there are more decisions to be made in the process, but I know I'll be able to pull through from everything. I have God, nothing can go wrong as long as I have faith in Him.

And yes, for that person who has been so special and dear to me, I'm sorry too. I know that I've done some things in the past that I shouldn't have--- I'm really sorry, for causing you pain and for also making it hard for you. (Although I know you're okay now but for what its worth, if you're able to read this in the future, thank you for the friendship!)

Hopefully, we'll be fine the next time when our paths intersects, yet again. By then, I fervently hope we'd be able to smile at each other and just be ourselves.

Thank you for everything, my dear old friend.

- R.